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Jennipher
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I'm a fanfic writer working on my own story and manga as well...There is a high demand for my last fanfic to be made into a doujinchi so that will happen soon with any luck. I'd like to get the first bits of MY story done though. ^_^ I have three chapters done but considering I've known it start to finish including the sequel since I was sixteen and I had a Challenger tree planting Memorial when I was in pre-first...that's saying something. I didn't post even half the concept art from it because to be honest...I'm embarassed about it. I can be very hard on myself. My friend said that my stuff was good and so I should try posting here. We'll see, I guess.
Rhinoa

Current Residence: the firey depthes of hell that is south florida
deviantWEAR sizing preference: whatever works i guess
Print preference: depends on the picture
Favourite genre of music: goth (NOT EMO!!!) black metal, grunge, 80's pop
Favourite photographer: whoever does the fetish modeling shoots for my friend Alexx
Favourite style of art: I have no favorite style...If I like it I like it...if not oh well
Operating System: umm...a computer, lol
MP3 player of choice: the cheap one I have from Target
Shell of choice: the wall I build around me. =P
Wallpaper of choice: I change it almost daily on my computer...Right now its Ciel and Sebastian of Kuroshitsuji
Skin of choice: umm...I want purple sparkly skin please!
Favourite cartoon character: Tomoe Hotaru, Sailor Saturn
Personal Quote: "Peace, love, empathy." Not my quote, but it hit home when Courtney read it for Kurt'
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(Ok, so yesterday I wrote this letter to my son who was stillborn six years ago tomorrow.  I'm not sure if it will help me or not but I need to try.  Here goes…)

Alex,

Six years ago the dates were aligned just as they are now.  On a Tuesday just like today I was excited because come November I'd get to meet you.  Things didn't work out as planned though and while Wednesday would be terrible, Thursday held horrors worthy of hell.  I still wish it had been me that day.  If trading could have somehow saved you then I'd have no regrets about dying in your stead.  Isn't that how a mother's supposed to feel naturally anyway?  Sometimes I can still feel your tiny feet kicking me.  I was convinced you were so strong.  I miss you and all that could have been.  I wish I could have joined you that day if not trade places.  I feel by living without you I have failed as your mother.  I should have been there with you on your journey.  Instead you had to face death alone.  I can never atone for letting you down like this.  If you had lived Thursday would be your birthday.  I'd be buying balloons and making goodie bags for all your friends.  What kind of cake would you have wanted?  Would you want pizza or a barbecue?  Is there any theme you'd be excited for?  What sort of presents would you have asked for?  Would you still crawl into bed with mommy or would you be too old and cool for that by now?  I already have your handsome little face in my mind, but I want so much more.  I hate whatever stole you from me.  If I could destroy whatever it was you still wouldn't be here though.  Maybe I'd feel better for a moment at least.  One precious moment of peace.  Is that asking too much?  Would you spend weekends with your father making him crazy only to have him adore you in spite of himself?  Would you run circles around your cousin?  You have another cousin on the way now.  Would you protect her just like a brother?

I love you.  I always will.  I just wish I could stop hurting so much but the hurt reminds me that you were really here.  I don't want the hurt to go away forever…But a vacation would be nice.  I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.  I just wish you were here and that I hadn't been so helpless.

Love, mommy
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: silence

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hubert61 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014
merci pour les favs :)
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noahpixie Featured By Owner May 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aaahw thank u so much for ur' faaav' !  ☆ミ(o*・ω・)ノ  :happybounce: 



( I have a facebook page, if you wish, a little like would be welcome  La la la la Thanks <3  

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hubert61 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
merci pour les favs :)
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RhinoaLunar Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
L'eglise est tres belle.  Je parle un petit peu de francais.  Pardonez-moi pour mes erreurs avec la lang.  Votre photographi c'est tres bien.  Merci pour votre partage de ce talent.    ^_^
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WilliWeissfuss Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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KouranKiyo Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
thanks for the fave! 
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jgilronan Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fave
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Rikitza Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014   Photographer
Jennipher thx :hug:
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deskridge Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014   Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:!
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Samii-Doll Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
Here, have a llama in return :meow:
Also feel free to check out my facebook page & give it a like if you should feel so inclined
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